The last half-dozen or so chipper posts were written while I was on a drug called Wellbutrin (among other things, of course).
But my medical folks decided that it was making me manic, so we changed drugs. (How did I feel? I would have taken the manic to have the positive energy, but, alas.)
Since then I've tried a couple of different drugs at different doses, with no success. I am as depressed as I have ever been. No energy. No desire to do anything, except, sometimes, to read. I spend long blocks of time in bed, and I just feel strange.
Off to Harborview tomorrow to see the folks who are in charge of these drugs ... what do I expect? One more little tweak. I think she said last time that if there was no improvement we would cut the dose on my anti-anxiety meds. (Don't ask. I think it works against the other meds.)
Right now I am taking Abilify and Ritalin for depression, but no results.
I m very unclear about all of this right now and my memory is poor, so I may have explained myself badly. Sorry.